ok. i type out everything and i delete it. WOW.
11.31. hi, again.
tired. i don't know why now adays i just feel that whatever I do.
this not correct. that one will hurt this person. that one will hurt the other.
i lost my sense of direction. i lost that confidence of saying, " Yah. I am choosing this. "
i feel very empty. yet very heavy. in the sense i am very tired.
can't breath right.
sleep more, weiting.
tomorrow i don't know what to do.
I don't want to stay at home. Weiting, how bout you go library alone?
SIAO. eh?
last time can do art there. now nothing to do.
i really don't know how to study.
not that i don't want.
i guess i need to talk with liyi :D
always feels great talking to her.
i miss going home together with her and laughing so loudly on the way x).
siyun also. ):
very long never go out with her le.
last time after school will bring her go to her fav swing.
push her until i fly. :P
qianwen oso gone with the wind ):
seldom can contact her le but really miss going out with that cute little penguin ):
hais. weiting. wru?
when can you start going out with yourself?
how? what am i going to do?
i am lost. so should i start digging a grave?
lol. tired. tired tired.
its time to let go weiting (:
you hate her?! but why? no reasons? let go of it then.
you despise her?! but why? rumours ain't worth a thing unless you really hear it yourself.
let it go.
don't like her?! but you only spoke to her once in your life. what for get yourself troubled.
let it go.
i start to see my way out of this.
i want to grow up now. i want to learn things the mature way.
that person don't like you, treat that person even better.
let fouls turn to friends.
and those that really cannot be trusted, remove them from your lives.
Lalala. My speech.
lol. From tmr onwards. just because today. Today is 27.
thats why its time to learn and grow.
tempers, chunk one side.
Good night then. May God bless all of us :D

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Hi :3
shake shake. LOL.
i am hearing shake it. hohoho.
today is friday! OMGOMG.
so fast! zzzz.
hardly get to breath. the week flies like wth?! so fast!
mehmeh.
nvmnvm.
tmr rest well arh! :D
tired le. yawns.
lol. lalala. today arh today.
errm.
oya. talking about banana.
thank you so much jiajun :D
without you i think i will fail my geo until jialat!
so even if i fail or pass all the credit still comes to u :D
oya. got post pics :D
eh. one is a victoria concert hall de :B
the others is wednesday?
i saw the two rainbows.
wooo~
lol. audi time X:
buhbye :P

Hi! updating :3
sunday went to church with taima :D
very fun. hahahs. went cinema see. coz no space.
woola!
funny sermon.
taima went off. scared she lost ><
then later i went third service again.
but then i realise first one more interesting. haha.
hehehe. then later went to watch slumdog millionaire? or billionaire.
lol. nc16. LOL
second movie of this year. and i watched nc 16 already. LOL.
nice show. abit disgusting.
then then went home. :3
monday. choir is sian dao.
LOL. tuition if fun. hahahas.
lao shi always talk with me and have tuition at the same time.
heng have tuition. today teacher teach de things is like ...
phew. yesterday learn le. wahhahas.
and then today math lesson.
its so irrtating.
can't you just agree?
yah. mr hakim is so right. ego ego.
thanks for wasting the time?
wadeva.
then chinese. they were eating ba qua. LOL!
then teacher very very angry.
record names then finally scold scold scold.
whhoo. i never eat. LOL!
recess :D thanks siyun and liyi for buying the food :P
say i not ahma, is aiyan. coz like to act. LOL!!!
hahahs. then later went to hall.
lalala. went bak to class.
bio. omg my test. 2/25.
dam sad. i study until wan faint then this kind of results.
later i went to stand outside.
coz i never do homework.
actually have la.
but dun wan see her face. zz. lol.
after that was chem.
my chem. i hardly study. ._.
i got 11/25. although still fail but then never mind la.
not that bad. God bless :B
hhoho. then then was class time. finish my homework.
heng my tuition teacher did question 9 with me. LOL!!
hahahs. save me trouble . :3
then later finish le. slack.
omg. ms ho liyi very kb sia.
she keep sae wad last class no hope.
dun study then go ite.
wadevea sia she. very demoralizing.
then atiqah cried. aiyohh.
that holiyi does that all the time.
irritating bitch.
then after school went to do art.
said buhbye to jos , qw and jq.
me and hl went dwn.
buy water. dododo.
i drawing draft for final board.
then later cut long story.
hahahs. me and hl went to peep at the clay done by javier.
lol! huiling sae got pi gu. but i canot see.
later i go take my specs. then saw it.
LOL! very cute sia. lol!
hahas. then i went home with lincon and duno who.
then take bus. i off his phone. oops x:
LOL! :3 anw thanks . (:
ok. finally can come home early. 4 +. early.
hohoho. tired.
hi today.
glad u saw me for once?
misunderstanding the best way for me to get out.
buhbye.
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We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.


See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello;

Little did I know
That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me; they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh.

I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think-"

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet. you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh, oh.

We were both young when I first saw you...

MUMMY! alot of candids today :3
muhohoho. went out with taima.
called almost everyone. in the end we still go ourselves. hahahas.
today very funny day !
LOL. went to bugis. then want buy water.
walked up and down.
went to ljs later.
then was happily eating. then liyi send a msg
: kindly note that ...... terrorist. ........ please don't go to bugis.
ME AND TAIMA WAS LIKE OMGOMGOGM!
LOL!!
hahahas. so we ran for our lives? hahahas.
went to marina. sae want find tee.
call him he sae he is at ARINA. not marina!
WTH! then we walk around.
omg i am in love with mickey mouse x)
black white red. :3
very cute!
lol. the plaece we visit most often is : toilet. LOL!
hahahs. then later cut long story short.
went to take train.
then taima alighted at clementi.
then i take bak alone. went home :B
plae audi. blah blah.
blogging :D
hohoho. tired tired tired.
tmr going to church.
okays. the end :)
buhbyee! :D

today is friday.
finally free to update my blog.
monday went home at 7+
tuesday quite early bah? don't remember.
wednesday nonono. very late T.T
got choir. jh psk >x(
thursday 8 reach home.
today 6+.
jh psk again. >x(
today not very bad. hai hao hai hao.
today take bak math test.
eeee. at least i won someone. LOL.
errm. science arh.
i pass i very happy le.
very tired. cannot stay up. duno why.
zzz.
Very tired. Physically and mentally.
used up my patience.
bad temper. CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE.
cannot like that.
zzz. can't help it.
as though they revolve around you.
forgodsake. wadeva.
tired. tired. tired.
i thought i can do it. but its not that easy already.
lalalala.
don't like this. don't like that.
i am feeling too pampered in my class.
i forgot the whole school is not only about 4e4. its about so many people.
ok bak to the main point.
tmr is sat. hooray! tuition then i can go study.
maybe study? or walk around.
tmr can slp very long x)
i wan go kbox X:
lalalala.
i am abit unsure of what i want now.
i am becoming so sick.
that "character" disgust me.
but being nice is not very nice too? LOL.
addicted to my blog song. hohoho.
omg i am so random x_x
today i saw you.
hi. you are so fake.
now you disgust me more than i disgust myself.
nvm. don't feel much now.
really don't.
its like a prick stuck in you finger.
you can't squeeze it out or pluck it out.
you try your best to remove it but it still hurts like hell.
finally you went to wash your hands and it drops off by itself.
the pain is still there but won't hurt as much as before.
well i was very stupid.
i took the prick and put it bak after it dropped off.
doing the same thing for 1 year ++.
then i finally decided to remove it.
i put a plaster on the wound .
now i am waiting for it to heal.
hais. buhbye (: .

Hi. Today, my sister is a bitch :D
Didn't go to church today . quarrel with that bitch.
and i can't stand it when my mum supports her.
zzz. wadeva (W)
then read book. stay in room.
cut long story short. 4 went out.
meet taima and nuer.
wasei! they scare me sae they swimming.
later top up card. help the indian infront of me get standard ticket. HAHAHA.
FIRST TIME. LOL!
so kind. tyty. LOL!
then later came le we walk around.
go arcade to try get qw the stitchy.
but then still canot.
later saw huiling!
hehehe. then we keep try to catch.
later saw david and his friend.
then the whole evening stand there try to catch.
hahahas. but still canot .
hehehe. in the end went to eat dinner.
throw things until fly until another table!
taima!! LOL! xP
hahahas. then faster run!
go to pm. faster go home le.
ok! tmr got sch. havent do math.
shit sia. everything oso duno.
stress. alot of things havent do. havent study.
nvmnvm! buhbyee le. x) jy!
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Today is nicee.
Although its lonely valentine.
Only take photo with qw and taima.
but only have one with me.
today was late X:
went to kfc find them.
qw was eating.
didn't know it was qw.
i saw the two back views. familiar.
jos and jq. then i see. hey! got chiobu!
LOL! then walk there. orhs.
then i sae diana! wasei! got beat up! LOL!
hahahas. nola. qw more chio lol.
i only know the white white like diana nia.
never wear specs de xia chang D:
then me and taima share a meal.
after that cut story.
went arcade.
jos and jq caught a stitchy.
qw never ): stupid machine.
then take mrt.
wasei. alot of people looking. LOL!
too AA liaos x)
then later raffles place.
alight.
walk a whole big round!
go bak to original place ._.
LOL.
then take mrt to orchard.
walk abit.
then we hungry x)
went kfc again ._.
LOL!
told them ( any one tmr sae wan eat kfc i beat that person! )
omg! eat until sian.
LOL!
later qianwen and jing qi had food snatch fight!
AHHH! i am victim! *faints*
in the end chicken flew to the floor and the rest landed on me ._.
LOL!
screams!
X:
today alot of people look at us. LOL!
then later faster run! x)
then went to see t shirt. hehehehe.
bought a mickey mouse dee.
hohoho.
then walk to mrt station.
take mrt together.
then qw went to era.
said buhbyee to her.
then later the three of us in train.
WOW X:
LOL! even more jialat. hahahs
jingqi go knock the glass then the person wake up from slp!
LOL! XD
then nvm nvm.
next one is they laugh VERY LOUD. LOL! hahhas.
then then went jp.
sae wan eat with jos. hohoho
then later her parents came me and jing qi faster zao!
LOL.
then then we went to print pics x)
after that went squeeze with the crowd.
see jj lin.
canot see lei! :3
then we went one big round go take our pics.
after that went to see got space.
everyone no space.
went pioneer mall.
eat there le talk talk.
after that we cross the road :D
then nu er went home <33
then i take bus.
msg msg . then reach home le.
bath. rest.
use com.
hohoho. i am happy.
(: very happy.
buhbye!
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你撑着雨伞 接我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失

泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 留在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时 拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
再难过其实 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时 拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 即使分开我们 都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起那时 那天和你傻笑着认识
是最幸福的事.

okay. I am posting again.
hi, today focused test was like shit.
didn't finish last question.
today is a sickening day.
ok. extra info.
last valentines was on a thursday.
i remember giving him a present but then.
nvm (:
this year. valentines is tmr.
but lets take it as today.
he is no longer around.
so well. great.
paused. lessons first.
el. fuck that paul la.
disgusted by his sarcastic-ness.
nvm.
then was math.
ho fue ming is very VERY naggy.
then el again.
then recess.
then later go bak class do skid.
watch them.
then later go gallery.
sit with taima they all.
then watch the skids.
then went off to class.
cl remedial.
my focused test got 58 ._.
shocked.
LOL.
God bless. but hope that ang hwei beng dun change my marks.
then went down.
canteen.
happily walking with dear siyun.
i saw you. saw you. & i saw you.
then i cried ._.
but when i didn't see you where you were just now.
i cried even more.
i thought it was a dream.
i thought i was lost for a moment.
any way nobody realise except zhi guang. LOL.
i duno why.
i always thought it isn't you anymore.
but i can't help it.
wrong day. wrong timing.
everything. WRONG.
you. killed me.
then went up for test.
blank. you you you and you.
cannot think. focused. tries.
ok. start doing. tikam tikam.
everything anyhow do.
no time for last question. forget it.
forget the test. forget you.
went jp. happy (: contented with friends.
walk around.
went home.
in bus. you. and you again.
as though those thoughts were right behind my cornea. see it happening at every point of time.
everywhere you left a few parts of the memories we share.
reached home.
bath. use com.
find songs.
you and you and you.
ok. enough.
goodbye.
happy advance valentines day to all lovely couples.
happy friendship day to all those friends too.

Hi!
I'm posting!
okays. UPDATES! :D
today was fine. not as bad as yesterday.
yesterday felt alittle empty.
the day before yesterday felt angry.
hmms. just had tuition . hohoho.
tuition is fun x)
school arh.
tried to stay back to do art.
but khoiri really is irritating.
the reason why i really don't like him.
there is too much to list.
lalala.
few more months to count down.
woo~
get out get out and get out.
tmr got choir.
sian. tmr got pe. sian.
wait. please enjoy your lessons.
wow!~ tmr is fun! woo~
LOL.
valentines is coming.
ogod. i hate that day.
i remember tears trickling down my cheeks.
all those excitement and anticipation.
turned into tears of disappointment.
one year passed so quickly.
i always feel you there.
ok. cut the crap.
goodnight then . haix.

ITS NEVER MY FAULT TO LEAVE SO IRRESPONSIBLY. ITS YOU, WHO ASK HER TO COME. AND NOTHING IS GONNA CHANGE. BECAUSE SHE WAS THE ONE WHO HURT ME FIRST. THE SO CALL FRIEND OR WHAT EVER BLAH BLAH. THEY ARE ALL LIES. SO DON'T ASK ME TO GO. I QUIT CHINESE ORCHESTRA. BUHBYE! ___________________________________________________________________

today.
went to meet jos taima and jingqi :D
hehehe. i was the latest X:
psps X:
lol. then we went to ajisen!
hahas. i call a plate of sushi.
but then!
i end up with two plate of noodles, one piece of chicken, one prawn plus my sushi's X_X
LOL! but then it was very nice of them <33
:D
then we ate and talk. lalala~
after that teacher called.
rush time.
went face shop first.
they continue eating.
bought my moisturizer.
the sales girl is scary.
x_x
53.90. BOMB.
LOL!
then later went back to find them.
saw them opposite me.
faster follow up and scare them! LOL!
taima gave the " YOU SHOCK ME " LOOK. x)
jing qi also! LOL!! hahas.
both very cute neh~
x)
then we went to see bag.
later dun have.
after that they didn't go library.
so we went to take 243W.
before that jing qi wans balloon. omg so ps! xD
then we take 3. LOL! X:
;3 hahhas. then take buss.
they go lanshop. i went home change pants.
buhbye to them.
then i change pants le mama ask me if want to go auntie house. i said okay.
later reach le faster take things go down.
rehearse.
then later she came.
i am like. wow teacher never told me.
so fed up.
nvm. so i went off.
went upstairs to take my bag.
take the things . put upstairs.
went off.
i take the bus to interchange.
initial idea was to find my mummy at aunts house.
but then my mood was horrible.
msg people. nobody replied.
so nvm.
called my mum.
told her i not going.
but then i duno where to go.
called people. nobody picked up.
felt kind of lost.
kept walking.
so i decided to walk home.
walk pass the library.
walk pass 243G first bustop.
liyi called.
i told her wad happen.
but then i dunno why i started to drop tears.
she didn't know X:
so nvm. hehe. continued walking.
people started to reply.
i didn't give a dam.
too tired.
continued walking.
cross the road.
walk pass third bustop.
continued walking.
raining. nvm. continued walking.
the weather suits my mood.
walk to gekpoh.
thoughts: i wont feel like cooking. time to get dinner.
went to buy dinner.
walks home.
take lift.
felt much better at home.
bath.
woo~
watch TV.
finally buddy msg me.
nvm tell him wad happen but i kept talking about other stuffs.
very sickening. dunno how to express myself.
after that use com.
TV shows are boring.
play Audi.
bu. lose and lose. woo~
tired. 9.35.
continues typing.
ok. what had happen was.
i don't like what my teacher is doing.
he is not respecting what I'm doing.
and the sight of her reminds me of what she said.
disgusted.
hurt.
shocked. what a friend I've been. Hooray.
Anyway. yesterday finished the book " the kite runner"
okays. I still haven't cry ._.
LOL! but i like the ending.
For you a thousand times over.
" I ran"
was the last sentence of the book.
it touched me. but not to the extend of crying.
now i am reading the five people you meet in heaven.
my dear siyun recommended me.
not bad not bad.
almost done with it.
hope to finish it by monday.
9.41. time flies.
just now was 8.58.
yawns*
stops here. will update this blog.
gonna get better.
and forget about the past.
stands up, walk away.
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ok. yiwei pops out and said.
tmr is my birthday. LOL!
i say i will buy her comb and mirror. hahas.
TO YIWEI:
this girl is very adorable. another gift from god bah (:
different from other people.
and i wil pray for her that she gets fatter.
she really like chopstick .
always bully me de X:
LOL!
ahahs. must study hard hoh u. 15 le.
hmms. we same age neh! HAHAHA!
LOL!
although don't really know you.
but i never regret knowing u. this bhb girl :D
hahahs. xP
<33 :3
and now. her " beatiful pic (: "
THE BAMBOO : HAHAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW! :D <3