Ahhhh. Time flies. April ends.
7 more days is ahma de death anniversary. sounds strange. LOL.
15 more days to my birthday :3
Today and yesterday was language paper.
I'm too tired to talk about them.
Emotionally tired.
All I want is very simple.
I want my peace, solitude, comfort and love.
I have none of the above.
Now I'm in a horrible mood. OMG PMS AGAIN!
LOL! hahas. TIRED! ZZZZZZ D:
I feel like dead dolls. :O
awwww :(
havent do art. -.-
havent do revision.
havent sleep. yah. ._.
and my sister listens to very strange music. zzzzzz
nvm. my sister sae i keep emo cos its teenage life.
aiyah! go off le la :3
buhbyeee! D:

Hi. Its Saturday (:
Beautiful day. Suppose to do somethings to my hair but then I think I should wait ._.
LOL.
Today whole day at home.
Plae com awhile X:
but morning wake up got do homework hoh!
:3
Anyway to Many beloveds, my back is fine now! Hahas :D
thanks ! :P
then then today I was rolling around.
eat sleep use com watch tv and eat. LOL.
boredddd!
And I wonder why I don't get fat when eventually I always do this kind of stuffs.
I am so bored that I am blogging nonsense. Believe me. I don't even know why I am doing this. LOL!
Okay. To entertain myself, I shall post about some late issues and my unfavourable comments.
First Issue : SPAMMERS.
recently while I was blogging, I saw many spammers lingering about blogs and giving stupid and ridiculous comments that were none of their business without their BIG names.
I'm like.... Don't they get sick of such stuffs?!
Why want to spam in the first place without your name?!
put ur name there and say it nicely la?!
aiyohhh.
And then if not they write about somethings stupid like " You are so ugly"
LOL! also nobody ask them look.
If not they will ask with their thick skin about peoples' relationships.
OMGG~
I think they are psycho or something.
I will pray for all the spammers! :D
Lalalala :3
Actually I really don't have much to post about ._.
OMG I AM SO BORED!
Aiyah. I go eat. LOL! Hahas.
buhbyee!
Lastly before I go.
Few days ago till now I'm still having dreams about you and me.
Ever since we quarreled I've been dreaming of you.
That day I walk away because I'm really mad at teacher and you.
And mad about Myself.
I hope you are fine.
Really miss you alot. Miss those times we use to spent every saturday together.
But now that you're gone from my life, Everything is so strange.
7 years of friendship. I still don't know how to let go. But I'm learning.
Hope that you are fine. Maybe you've forgotten me.
But then what can I ask for.
I don't have the courage to ask for a patch back in this friendship.
Neither do I have the courage to let go.
You were my best friend. (:
But then the smallest problems are the most difficult to fix.
I gave up on this friendship. I gave up on chinese orchestra.
Now I'm learning not to think about it.
But all this are just my last words. Bear with me and my emotions.
Even though its both our faults.
I have forgiven you. But not myself yet.
I want you to know that you ain't just a friend for the past 7 years.
you were like my sister.
and everytime i take the bus home, looking at you house triggers my tears.
sounds so stupid crying but I treasure every friendship. and every moment we used to have share.
I don't know if you are looking at this. But I wish you well.
My daddy will look after you.
And please do smile like how you always do. :D
I know that you understand that this is about you.
But this is for me. For me to learn how to share, cry, and let go.
I always resolve things then to give up.
But this time I really don't know how, and what to do.
Maybe its the end.
Anyway, buhbye.

Hey :D
Its friday. Very early go home! so shiok~
LOL. anyway. today hurt my back. Grrrr!
Many thanks to Liyi, Qianwen, Joscelin, Huiling, Ika, Atiqah, Liza, Michelle & many many more :D
hohoho.
nothing much today.
the only thing I hate about school now is MR P.
anyway now at home very sian ~ D:
nvmnvm....
Aiyah. I go roll around le. buhbyee!

O. I've updated.
But then not satisfied . Grrrrr.
Nvm..
Today is plain normal.
Everyday is the same. when you are not in love (:
Now adays very stress. But then I ain't working. Which is the dam problem ._.
Today draw draw stare stare to wait for Mr hakim.
So i drew a girl looking into a dam fish tank which looks so strange. haha.
remedial was quite fun.
slacking at the back with atiqah :)
lessons were soso.
anyway to JOSCELIN LEONG. Cheer up :D
oyah. tmr de choir thingy canceled.
Anyway gonna start my nags again.
Actually at the start really regretted joining choir because drama closed down.
posted about the meanest thing of my instructors :o
hated my seniors for wadeva reason i could think of.
But then this year as i slowly know more about everyone, I find choir quite interesting :D
met new people like Jing Qi, Taima, Shermain, Nuoella, Liting, Pei Shi, Amelia, Shanice, Carrie, Jing Yi, Yi Wei, Zhi Guang, Jia rong, Jia yuan.
Some were old friends but then really got into better relationship with everyone.
Instructors are acutally quite nice. except psycho at times.
but then had lots of fun (:
To jing qi: You are a very nice girl (: very naughty too! :P
done lots of things I've never do before ._. LOL.
very adorable little kid. always very cheerful.
You have very impactful tears >x(
because when you cry you make people want to cry with you.
Always a joy when we go choir together :D
To Joscelin: You arh.. Also very naughty one.
Always do very funny things! :D
you two together like circus already. + qianwen oso. LOL!
hahas. next time dun snatch zhi guang de PE shirt le. stinks like hell. :B
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Anyway I'm gonna see them less often so I write first.
hoho :3
Now must work hard le. no more choir le. But then will miss those days where I can complain.
ok! fire butterfly starting soon! :P
buhbyeeee!!

Hi. Today Pastor went for holiday :3
pastor lian preached.
wooo~ the blonds jokes were so cold. x)
anyway today was fine for me.
art almost finish 8 boards le. many thanks to auntie zen :D
very tired. now converting Pastor Prince sermon into MP3.
later go do art jiu sleep le.
busy busy day. :O
tmr must go school le. stupid study programme waste my art period D;
anyway...
Today I'm still hungry for God :3
And Just on the CD awhile. Really feel very down for Pastor Prince D:
But then God's Glory shall be His shield of defence :D
Its not very nice to write fake reports of people on news paper.
I repeat. newspapers. not papers.
So the one about Mr P doesn't count X:
and Mr P is just so not lovable and not very men plus he has reach the most profound stage of sarcastic-ness.
Indeed I ain't very lovable as well but then I don't expect everyone to like me.
Just don't give those sarcastic comments on peoples' churches and stop all those buzzing insults on people.
I don't care if he read this or not. LOOK HERE CAREFULLY. MR P SUCKS.
I didn't say who but then MR P suits u very much.
And ps if anyone that is not MR P feels that he suits the exact criteria that I have stated, it means you have a problem too. ):
And MS H really has a problem about me being unpleased with MR P. But then I also nver FORCE her to read the dam thing. hahahs x)
MS H was too busybody to go read it. Too bad. awww~ :P
anyway I am referring to the OLD MS H.
ok. enough of scoldings.
anyway I love God :D
Oya. and i think i fit into today's sermon section.
You don't have to be righteous to be blessed.
But I will learn to be a Good Girl because I LOVE DADDY :D
buhbye!

Hi!
Its wednesday.
I'm currently half alive. (:
tmr is SYF :3
now coughing like mad but then still can hold until tmr. sians.
today school was fine.
art lessons were painting my doll.
left the hair.
chinese lesson is super duper boring.
geography was still okays. doing test.
mr alam nver come. so slack around.
atiqah and liza and farasha came back.
then showed us some pictures.
and then in between some tragic of mine happen.
ok nvm.
then i hope they get good results :D
after that was chem.
khoiri is dam fucking childish and idiotic and selfish and disgusting.
ok nvm. he is just too himself.
the chem test was horrid shit.
and i havent hand in my file but i told mrs cheiw i did ._.
lol. choir was horrigiable!
first was that si ying and liana that were totally awful bitches in disguise.
follow by singing and singing.
but then nvm. tmr syf. then sae buhbye.
went home.
very tired.
i feel that i am very problematic. sorry.
nowadays i am facing alot of emotional problems.
yah maybe i really too emo.
I guess I need to give thanks before I go.
Thank you everything started early.
Thank you everything has ended today.
All the misunderstandings. I got them very clear now (:
I wouldn't waste time. I wouldn't repeat careless mistakes.
They would get you into serious problems.
Many thanks to Daddy God. That I ain't too sick for syf.
Many thanks to him that I'm well protected.
Many thanks to him that I'm not alone.
Thank you Daddy, for letting me realise my mistakes early too.
Haix. Buhbye (:

I'm back :)
Yesterday was mummy's birthday!
Happy birthday mummy! <33
Yesterday was suddenly sick.
whole night very cold.
woke up and I can't move.
then i had fever and hardly can swallow anything.
then after that ate all sort of medicines.
finally, PANADOL! lol.
then got better.
at night climbed out of comfort zone!
went to clementi and celebrate mummy bday with aunties too.
then later went home.
fell aslp at 9.
today woke up fine!
and wanted to go to church.
but nobody free D:
so nvm. went out with sister cos going winnie jiejie de bday chalet.
but then on the train. stand too long.
at outram park. i felt like vomiting.
so i alighted and almost fainted.
so cab home.
Now! I'm at home ._.
tmr maybe going school bah.
SYF coming.
hope my voice dun break down first.
MY CCA POINTS!
okays. then thats all bah :)
buhbyeeee D:

First and foremost! Happy birthday to claire! :D
Today met up qian wen and jos first.
then later walk around ..
then went mcd. after that liyi came.
then later later later ! we were.. oya. eating. X:
after that i was doing my mummy de bday card :3
tmr is her birthday :D
cut story.
then later walk around.
then came home. yawns.
tired. :B
just watched 200 pounds beauty again.
duno why but suddenly wan watch.
hoho. very nice :P
now slack around.
tmr celebrate mummy de bday lol! :D
sun bian bring art to do.
now my throat got abit of problem.
but i believe God will heal it in no time! AMEN! :D
now going to bed le. haix.
nitenite :D

A B C D E F G.
Boreeeddd.
Today is boreeddd.
Still alittle down. I don't know why.
Maybe I need more sugar. :3
Dreams dreams, when we have just started things. Dreams of me and you.
And it seems, it seems. That I can't shake those memories. I wonder if you feel the same way too.
LOL. lyrics from The littlest thing :X
ANW! :D
Today school arh.
math. oyah! later must find book.
I was praying man!
Because I don't want to get scolded. LOL! X:
because i don't have the book!
so really! she scolded everyone that doesn't have the book except me. God bless . phew*
then later give out books.
OMG! i was praying! x)
hope that out of the 33 books , I 'm one of the 4 that didn't have horrible books.
and God bless! i was in. LOL! very funny things but then its true :D
and then i realized. all the books i have borrowed and seen.
non of their books were mark except mine ._.
and direct instructions were written in my book for me to do corrections.
God's blessings :DDDD
hohohoho. <3
english lesson was another miracle because mr paul isn't here. LOL x:
chemistry was fun and tiring :P ask atiqah. hhahas. and her nabeis. omgoodness.
class time , no teachers and mr gan came in to say hello. LOL.
after remedial went to find jing qi they all and went art room.
mr hakim, as usual always shock me.
then later i was waving to wong yun and he imitate me! >xP
hahahs. he very funny de la. x)
choir was rather strange..
and fun :D
had sectionals. and the sec 1 indian girl is soo not adorable. LOL. maybe she is just having some kinda of speaking disorder. cough* X:
and then went into choir room after that with joscelin and jing qi.
then we sat there and wait while i do math.
then later mr ng came in and we were talking to him.
he taught me some quesitons and the 4 of us were laughing so badly at the back.
First was the guy singing. one of them forget to stop :3
another thing was i was cracking my hands then mr ng said.
do you know what will happen if you keep doing that?
then i say fingers will grow longer?
he said yah. and then he said fatter too.
then i showed him my hands and said its long!
and he said, no. his is longer.
then we compare.
but then actually is his palm longer lol! X:
then later he dun believe!
then i point him my middle finger and said its really long!
FYI my middle finger is 8 cm++
then later he was like omg why u pointing!
and then jing qi and i started all the nonsense while taima laughing behind >x)
after choir ended then keep pester mr yong for audition. x)
suan him only then he say tmr :O
after that went out.
watch the UGs downstairs.
then later we went off. :3 ms oh catch me! ahhhh! X:
after that saw mr yong outside again.
then we slack there awhile.
zhi guang umbrella broken. handle and umbrella.
LOL. then me and jos take the handle and huiling join us. We "sharing" umbrella. xD
hahash. then after that saw mdm chan. she said i too stress ._.
before that i was praticing white horses' diction!
then mr yong was hearing. and suddenly i change singlish. LOL.
he like want fall like that. then that was when the umbrella broke !
later walk home with jing qi and zhi guang.
then was talking about ZG suddenly cry! dam funny!
xD
hahahs. had a pretty fun day although now i am boreedd :3
okays! the end of my story.
buhbyeeee!!

Story for today :)
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There is this man in england.
He is a bus driver.
That day he was driving the bus full of children.
But then the brake spoilt.
Then he was going down the steep hill.
He panicked, and finally remember that there is a field and that if he turns at the correct point of time, they will land there and everyone will be safe.
So the bus went down the slope. But at that same point of time he saw this little boy sitting at the gate to the field, playing.
He had one split second to think about whether to save the boy or the children in the bus.
He went over the boy.
Later the police and parents came.
The parents were hugging their children. Kissing them and holding on to them tightly, knowing that they are all saved.
Then someone asked, " where is the bus driver?"
The police pointed to one corner.
The bus driver was crying at one corner.
Because the boy that he went over was his own son.
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Daddy sacrificed his song to save us. :)
I cried while I hear my pastor was saying this. x:
Very touching when you know that no matter who hates you, God still loves you.
And I don't really have to pleased anyone in my class.
I do not threaten people with slaps and vulgarities.
I have peace. I have God.
I don't need those things to give me security.
None the less will I be afraid. Because I am the child of God.
Enemies shall come to me one way.
But flee before me Seven ways. (:
Thats what that makes me different.
I'm love :D
Today I cried because I am disappointed and angry.
But I still felt peaceful. (:
Anyway its very stupid to say you wanna slap someone but you can only do it outside school.
HAHA X: so mean X:
xD
ok :3
today is tired. wasted my energy. x)
walking home is good. I shall walk home everyday if i can.
I don't wanna post about my whole day.
The world, is crude.
But talking about God is off the world.
I don't belong to the world. I'm off the world.
Therefore nothing is gonna hurt me x)
I surrender, in pure adoration.
Buhbye :D
Spam my blog if anyone is unhappy.
But instead i say I will pray for everyone that hates me.
For he said love your enemies :D
I do everything he said that were laws. But I don't have to keep them. because i am forgiven.
But because I love him. I want to do that.

HI :D
lol. posting. friday. omgomg.
today de mood is moderate (:
school is fine..
atiqah went mad today! x)
she say she want bite B. omine!
then later is bio. present...
omg keng yun de is like... NVM (:
then later recess . qianwen bu jian le! O.O
then after that was cme.
talk talk talk.
then social studies.
I was falling asleep then at the same time praying to wake up.
then BOMB*
like someone push my head. then i felt very awake.
God bless xD
atiwaq was shock! LOL!
anw she offered me jelly beans that taste like bubble gum O.O
i think i'm gonna miss her after olevels. D:
anw x)
after school went e1 for chinese.
then nobody one ._.
do correction. secretly eat .
ok la. that laoshi blind one.
i take out and eat. not secretly. LOL
x) then later went bak to class after at liyi class awhile.
then later my class was in havoc stead.
do abit social studies.
then after that focused test.
topic was strange. xD
any how write.
fell alsp x)
3.20 slp until 3.40+
then check paper.
hand in.
went off to find liyi they all.
then after that sae buhbyee. me and liyi and siyun and jiajun and claire went off.
then later at gate ah yun and jj went off first.
me claire and liyi walk to jp.
cos i wan go popular. X:
then later buy le jiu went off.
saw lincoln. :)
then later went to take bus.
later claire left.
me and liyi on bus. then we have decided to go kfc xD
so we alight next stop then went to eat :D
haahahas. then later we chat and chat.
got very funny songs oso xD
then was talking about classes.
then i really felt that actually 4e4 isn't that bad x)
really gonna miss everyone after i graduate. D:
then talk about orchestra.
After the choir perform I insist watching band.
because they always remind me of orchestra (:
really miss my orchestra but then I ain't going back.
You betray me. you can give empty promises. I wouldn't.
I say I wouldn't go back, I ain't going back.
But I still will miss those days. haix.
nvm (:
then later me and liyi walk to bustop x)
then later was talking about jay walking too. hahas.
then bus came later.
she went off, i went home. thank you liyi! :D
after that shower.
now I'm here. :3
tmr is speech day. but no longer at night.
I think God has reasons for doing all this things for me.
Tmr got audition. abit scared. D:
but then nvm la. anyhow.
Let go and let Him. (:
hais. speech day.
I have forgotten everything. :/
buhbye liaos :B

Not everyone is lovable.
thursday. one more week to syf.
lalala. today is okok.
few days ago was fine.
april fool is still the same.
some things just changed.
1/4/09. and i recalled myself tearing up a book few months ago.
now like nth had happened before. eeeeeeeeee
so now secretly updating while doing bio project.
later go slp already.
exams coming. lalalala.
sickening exams.
try to jiayou bah (:
I love daddy :D buhbye!