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JIAYOU FOR O LEVEL ON MONDAY! <3
BUHBYE!!

Hi! Happy Belated Bday to Weiting :D
Whic is me ._.
Yesterday went to DARE!
omg I went alone!
DARE is the youth ministry for my church.
They all very high~
ahahas. meet alot of friends.Had lots of fun x)
Today!
hohoh. Must thank few people first!
First, is yesterday left out de!
Thank you Claire and Aijia :D
And then today!
Must thank Winnie jiejie, Kelly jiejie and Winnie jiejie de BF + JOS AND JQ!
Hahahs. Today meet winnie jiejie at bustop.
then we went to mos burger eat.
later kelly jejie join us.then walk around.
went clementi de kbox.
jing qi message me say she got something wrong.
then i say i meet her after my kbox.
after that winnie jiejie de bf came.
we sang and sang. hahas. very fun! xD
and they all really can sing ~ woo x)
then later jing qi called then she sound like she cried.
SO I RAN! I REALLY RAN !
then i take mrt to find her.
LATER REACH ALREADY! JOS AND JQ OVER THERE LAUGHING!
LOL! hahahs.
They very sweet man!
They bought me a cake and then sang me a song xD
They even brought fork and spoon ._.
ROFL. xD
Really thanks alot!!! <333
I was so shocked!
I thought what happened!
hahas. after that they smashed cake on me!
HENG! My hand kana. Not face. phew*
hahahs. then we went to eat CHICKEN RICE! x)
which i was suppose to eat just now. hahas.
then we shared. and we talk talk.
then later went 7-11.
then we went home. :DD
Today is fun! :D
Yesterday de Yesterday. I dreamt of ahma. x)
This time she is not scary.
She was beautiful. Its really her.
In my dream I saw her and i fainted cos i was afraid.
After that i woke up and i still saw her.
she said she isn't dead. she touched my hands and she was so warm.
Then she said i was skinny and bought alot of food for me.
She watched me eat. Then gave me a hug.
After that i woke up from my dream.
Then i cried.
LOL. This is really torturous for me.
I miss her so badly.
Hmmms. Okay.
I'm fine! :D
Tmr duno where I'm going.
x) see first?
I think I have bipolar. Goodness!
Whats that? CHECK THE NET LA!
Buhbyee! xDDD <3

Happy Birthday To Me.
Today is 15 of May.
Happy Happy Birthday! Had lots of fun today xD
Wanna thank alot of people first.
First, my dear classmates.
They shock me in the early morning.
Thanks for the dumbo! x)
And then I want to thank people who msg me! :D
Plus my family! xD
And I want to thank my friends for the presents and blessings!
So here go the name list. Sorry if I miss any names!
Liyi, Siyun, Jiajun, Jing Qi, Joscelin, Huiling, Qianwen, Amanda, Sister,Atiqah, Shriley, Michelle, Grace, Liza, Sing Onn, Swee Sheng, Mack, Jarrel, Joash, Harris, Khoiri, LoyLoy, Claire eu. Ler xin and Mummy and Daddy!
hahhas. I think almost all x) hahas.
Its fun today! :D
And Last but not least. Ahma and Daddy God. <3
Today stupid mdm lock caught me! xD
anyway nvm la. hahahs.
Joash reminded me. God Will Provide. Although he was spluttering nonsence. x)
But that 3 words are really meaningful!
He will deliver, He will provide!
Buhbye! I AM 16!

Today was a very happy day.
But it stop when i turned on the com.
I realise how stupid I'm. Beyond hope.
Nvm. zzz.
SPEECHLESS.
Anw you see. The problem is not that I don't say.
Is nobody want to listen.
So I tell my thoughts to my drawings.
They are the best listeners. They always shut up and hear.
Then when I finish telling them, people say my drawings are morbid.
Look at my life. The only things I'm contented with is having a perfect family, my concerning friends, and a good Daddy God.
Okay. so my life isn't very bad.
Maybe i am too pessimistic.
I think I am going to be like the Juana in the story I reading.
She think too much and went mad.
I think I'm having such symptoms.
And weird dreams that would come true.
Now I have difficulty differentiating.
I'm tired.
Very Very tired.
Being a teenager is so tiring.
So many emotional problems.
I'm gonna break down soon.
I don't want to wake up anymore.
I 'm just plain tired.

O Hi There.
Its wednesday.
Tmr is the start of the exams.
Torturing. Me and my last minute studying methods.
Really kills.
Tmr is social studies and chemistry.
the next day would be bio.
then after that next week. which I duno what. LOL.
my b'day is coming :3
Tmr is my ahma death anniversary.
Many words to her. but doubt I can post tmr.
So here goes.
Ahma, 1 year never see you le.
I hardly remember you face. Only remember its chubby and cute.
I still remember you powery smell. :3
you always smell nice. hahas.
and you warm hands. holding onto mine.
patting my head.
I miss helping you massage.
Miss your presence.
I miss your voice. I could hardly recall it.
I miss you calling me into your room when I'm free.
Telling me how excited you are over making clothes for me.
And showing me ur new clothes, asking me if they were nice.
remember when I was young and you would make skirts for me?
hahas. and you said ah ting must wear skirt then nice :P
remember you always holding on to me on your birthdays, making sure I was the one taking picture with you?
and remember when we use to quarrel?
and when I come home without my keys i always felt safe.
I would just shout " ahma, kui meng." :D
and you will come and open the door for me.
asking me about my day.
remember when you use to feed me when i was young?
and then we would watch shows together?
and remember sleeping together in the afternoon? heheh.
I always ask you how to slp. b'cos I couldn't slp while you were snoring. x)
But then what hurts the most was when you were in the hospital.
when you woke up and saw me. and ask me whether I have eaten anot.
the thought of you struggling to speak through that mask hurts my heart.
and then when you came home 3.30 in the morning on 7 may?
you laid there and not moving.
i held onto you but you were so cold.
you didn't move.
then I wipe your body and bid goodbye.
and whenever I think of you i can't stop crying.
I couldn't accept the fact that you were gone.
Remember that I promised you we would live together next time when I grow up?
and I will buy a big mansion and then we would all be happy?
I hope my daddy God has keep you in that big and beautiful land which he promised to bring all of us there.
then you would see me from above.
and we would still be together.
ahma I'm sorry.
I wish I did grow faster so that you can see me now.
I'm doing fine (:
I hope you are too.
I'd really missed you.
______________________________
okays. study sutdy and study.
ahma ask me to study.
and I want to prove everyone wrong.
Even and idiot like me, can score well as long as I study and with the grace of God.
Buhbye! ):

Hi. Today I feel emo.
First I want to say sorry.
Then I want to say sorry again.
I know its wrong to do that but then I can't help it.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I tried to forget, again and again.
But I can't. awwww.
I think I'm going crazy. Shut up Weiting.
buhbye. hais.

Hi its saturday :D
later going out. yawns ~
went blogging around x:
Everyone is a different blogger.
Same age doesn't mean the same mind.
There were blogs of 16 year old teenagers that can be so childish. LOL.
Some were mature and some were sad.
I think my is categorized as the crazy girl type.
sometimes very random. sometimes very childish, scolding teachers x:
sometimes very sad. sometimes alot of reflection.
Some of the blogs.. you mights have known their name but then you never understand them.
Rumors are irrealistic. So don't judge.
Hohoho. I don't think I want to continue reading " The last Queen."
So sad. and morbid.
I realise I ain't morbid anymore. I am rather looking for happy books.
But then I still like sad songs x:
And those horribly sad drama series.
I feel that that book is rather demonic and political.
hmms... But then I always buy books and don't finish them.
I havent even read half of the book for Confessions Of An Ugly Step Sister.
Because its very chim.
LOL. x:
and the two recent books I've bought are all about those Spain history or German kind of stuffs.
Very disturbing.
ahhhhh~
Speechless.
Havent do art!! arggghhh.
I don't know what I want.
Something like " The Girl Next Door" kind of theme.
very vintage. Light colours. Pink, skin colour, blue, white..
but i duno what to draw T.T
aiyah~~
Very tired to crack my brain.
Still need study for ss.
buhbyeee~ !!!!

Found this. Dig this out.
My first time seeing the ferris wheel.
the first ferris wheel i drew.
was this dam thing, make me change my whole plan for sec3 mid year.
on that night while i was finishing my ahma went into the hospital as well.
the next day was geography paper and then i cried along while i did my paper.
ahhh. I emo again. LOL.
see la weiting! watch so many drama!
so dramatic! LOL x:
anyway i wana protest! 7pm show is nice! the fire butterfly ( translate )
lol! last episode coming.
omg this show dam sad ._.
LOL. but i am morbid. x)
ahhhh~
6 and 14 more days.
buhbye!

Hi! Its LABOUR DAY!
woohooo! anw i woke up at 8 ._.
read story book. lol!
whole day nua around.
sis ask me go shopping. I ask her you got money meh?!
she say bf sponser. WTHHHHH!!!
D: nvm! I earned my own money next time !
slacking around so wanted to blog.
listening to the song that huiling sae its nice that joash told huiling that its nice that me and huiling heard at the shopping center.
OMG COMPLICATED.
LOL! anyway monsoon is nice ^^
lalala~
currently a little berserk.
as you can see. compared to my previous post! IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT MOOD!
LOL! I really have PMS. X:
And I keep having those sick mind after I read too much love stories.
wooo hooo~
I cry when Juana got betrayed. Laugh when she is in love.
Sometimes cover my eyes when the story gets scary.
So I say I'm really sick ._.
mama ~ :S
aiyahahaha~
I go off le la wooo~ buhbyeee!