I saw this picture and I was thinking anti religion. wth~
But then God gave me wisdom and I have an answer for it.
The cross inside there, and the words anti religion simply resembles people saying Christianity is not a religion. IT IS A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD! :D
Hi.
Bad news. I spent all my money. LOL.
I've been thinking alot today.
I even imagined you were there wherever I go.
I really wonder why I'm behaving like this for the past 8 months.
I must have been so dumb.
Lord, let me not be dumb ):
So.. Went shopping today with jos cos I going my cousin de wedding.
ps liyi and claire :B
Daddy God, I feel dry today.
There ain't church today. maybe?
Tmr I am going to church!
Nowadays I am really stress and emotional.
Every day I wake up and realised I haven't done anything and my o's are coming.
I 've been thinking about other things as well.
Rejection, Departure, Ahma and the attacks I get at night before I sleep.
When you are real blessed, thats when the attacks come.
And I proclaim! I am real bless! [ spam me wad so eva. I don't care :P ]
Oyah. So I keep missing good night sleep.
But then I know God is gonna give me blessings that is a 100 fold super better !
Exhausted. In no mood of looking at faces with colours..
But my mum enjoys showing me that.
anw if you dun understand wad I am saying thats normal. cos I direct translate from chinese.
( lian se)
I'm tired.
I wish I can live everyday happily.
[ who does not? DUH. ]
I'm just wishing to have MORE x:
Wondering why I am so picky when it comes to love.
Although I just look lower than average....
I am still picky.
I keep making stupid choices.
Over and over again.
God! I give that to you. :3
Give me your wisdom in choosing everything.
I'm feeling dry. Daddy, fill me again. With all your love.
I only want your love.
I guess the smartest thing I've ever done was to be a christian. :D
Time to study. Although I am slacking X:
buhbyee.
Btw. Felt like sharing this suddenly. LOL. holy spirit :D
To make a prayer. (: this is what you have to do.
Just talk to God like his is your friend. Thats all. What ever you want.
as long as it is reasonble. cos I use to have strange prayers like. If there is a God! Let cars fly!
so it didn't happen. LOL! duh? LOL
anw, just tell him. believe that he is there. you can close your eyes? hahas. or a simple prayer of putting your hand at your heart and say, daddy.
Because before you speak, he already knows what you want to say, or want.
Proclaiming also works. What you want, just tell him out loud you have it right now because it is God you are talking to! Its a relationship with him. Not religion.
Just talk to him anytime. That is communication. hoho.
Ok. RTQ! ( Mr paul's voice in my head. Hahas)
Just end with Amen.
Ok. so some people might ask. What does amen mean?
It means, I agree! I say yes to what ever I've said And it shall come true!
When you go to church and hear something good, just keep saying amen. and it will come to you.
now I got the [ too much amen] disorder.
I keep saying amen to almost everything. sometimes accidently curse people also say amen.
you never see my classmate[ cannot put name.x:] face . walaus. like want kill me like that. LOL! x:
Ok. So thats the end of : How to pray! :D
Ok. I can't stop. So now I shall talk about SAYING GRACE!
My classmates were asking me how to say grace and why need.
Saying grace means thanking daddy for what ever food you have. Is thanking his blessing to you and praying that this food becomes holy after your prayer. So what ever you eat. I MEAN WHATEVER! what ever you eat WILL BE HEALTHY to your body.
When you say grace, your brains stop thinkig that " hey! this is fried food, it makes you fat!"
your brain will step aside, and the holy spirit will signal to all you organs." Hey! this is food from God! you guys got any problem! Its GOOD food! Amen!"
hahas. something like that? :D haha.
So the food you consume will not cause any harm to you! :D
BUT PLEASE DO NOT GO AND EAT POISONOUS THINGS AND SAY THE PRAYER DOESN'T WORK.
This prayer is a shield. And if you purposly use something to remove the shield, off course it wun't work!
ok. so above is the reason why you say grace.
Ok. Maybe you can say grace like that? Thats how I say la. see! thats why I still haven't grow fat. LOL! I am healthy la! :P
here I go. :
Thank you daddy God for all the food you've given me.
What ever I eat will prosper my body because you are God.
In Jesus name, Amen!
ok. done. x)
I have friends that go " Thank you daddy! Amen!"
and they eat. hahas. Thats great faith yoh! x)
ok. I better get going! x) buhbye. preach myself happy. LOL.

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Ok, 3 pics. one O level art work. The other two for my post :3
Today is an emo day for me. LOL.
plus I never sleep well, was horrible. Suddenly felt the pressure and stress of O levels.
I can hardly breathe at the thought of it. So I 've decided to live a day by a day.
God says, you only have energy to think about things of today. If you force yourself to think of tmr, you will have a hard time.
Today... well.
Lord, this complains as follows are to you (:.
Daddy! Today that stupid sing onn was an ARSH man! I tell you! SO GL until the extend he deserves to fall into the drain and die! [oops]
God, forgive me. LOL. Anw I read proverbs today and yesterday and it said, love your enemies and do not go against them if they still come against you. For you shall have a feast before them when they fall at your feet.
Ok. Continue. Daddy, why are there girls that can really behave like bitches and sluts so well?
Haven't they have a slight sense of shame? Ohhhh...
[ forgive me too Daddy D: ] ( I am really pissed off. Believe me.)
I shall pray for them to have brains even though they are pea size.
And adding on. To YOU. and I know obviously YOU wun't read my blog.
Stop behaving like an arsh as well. Be'cos I thought everyone would, except you.
So for what ever sake Daddy, I give that strange stirred up feeling to you and I throw away all feelings of love to you.
Daddy, I seek for your mercy and grace. And I pray for wisdom and understanding heart.
Then I pray for time and a love from you. True love from you daddy! :D
Becos only your love is unconditional and EVER LASTING! x)
ok. So thats the end of my complains. Although I wanted to add in alot of vulgarties.
But I told Daddy I dun like them so I dun really have the habit now.
Even pointing middle fingers feels stupid as well. LOL!
Thank you Daddy, for all that you've done in my life! :D
From The Inside Out, I will adore you.

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise.
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

Hi! :D hahas.
Enjoying days that are lived to the fullest! :D
Anw really gonna miss school if it ends ):
hohoho. today was rather sad.. because of math.
i must pass!
oya. special thanks to jazzy and anjo! :D the message you guys send struck me at the right time! God's grace! hahas x)
And thanks jazzy for all the song!
today.. I wanna talk about what satisfy.
In life, God created many things to satisfy our needs and give us pleasure in everything we do.
But he didn't make all this for us to worship them.
The people who turned away from God and worshiped other idols were not truly satisfied.
God made all those things because he love us!
I believe that holding on to God, dwelling in his grace is the true satisfaction of life!
Let not your tongue speak evil, but speak of the good you want to see!
Let not your heart be troubled because God never leaves his beloved in worries.
Dwell in his grace, love and holiness brings true fullness to heart.
That over flowing love which nobody and no things can bring can only be brought by God into us.
No matter what you've done wrong, no matter if you've sin, no matter if you are an addict.
Just say "yes". that simple word brings you so much!
okay then! I shall work hard and give the rest to him.
Be at rest and God is with you.
I shall talk about that topic soon x) hahas.
buhbye!! hoho. Before I go. Here's a desert song :D
Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow.

Woo! Another day of church is so fun!
But yesterday was more full la. x)
Today pastor prince was here! although i wasn't seated in the auditorium...
ahh. hahas. post some random church pics. LOL.
addiction to posting pics. shucks x:
lol. so today was late. sorry winnie jiejie! D:
then kelly jiejie was more late. LOL!!
hahas. but then we still go.
walk walk. reach there. then later today sermon was on WISDOM.
so now know! that i can have wisdom and an understanding heart like the king in the bible. [ forget name ] x:
the preaching was awesome! I got hear ok! not like yesterday. oh mine ~
hahas. so the whole thing was great.
Just try! wake up in the morning, and tell Daddy God that you want wisdom and understanding heart that will guide you throughout the day. Do it everyday! :D
then, we went to ashton to makan. omg i tell you!
its super dam cheap and yummy! :DD
although it looks grand.
gahhh. x)
then later we went around. after that winnie jiejie left first cos cmz korkor got hand foot mouth disease. YOU WILL BE ALRIGHT! :D amen!
then later me and kelly jiejie went to art friend and i bought my canvases. hohoho.
thanks to her! got discount $$
hoho. then after that i went back to boon lay alone. mrt inside do bio.
siann.
then i read the bible. hahas. reading proverbs!
cos pastor say read proverbs to gain wisdom :B
hahas. desperate* LOL
then later take until pioneer stop. then alight and walk big rounds to pm.
then liyi came.
hohoho. then we study study talk talk.
it was a tired day but i really enjoyed it!
and just now was talking with liyi about the graduation thingy. so i've decided to post my regards to everyone since there is only 3 more weeks left and i dun think i will have much time left to blog.
_________________________________________________________
Its for everyone! So look out for your name ! :D
Firstly, lets start with my Girl friends x)
1. Dear Liyi Kwong. LOL!
So. Liyi, take tissue first arh. cough* ahahas.
The first time I ever saw this young lady. was sec 1. see! got fate right!
LOL! then i keep turning around cos i thought claire eu in my class.
then wah! you never see her face arh! want beat me up already! LOL!
but then as time goes by, you get to know her so much more!
thought she fierce right! yah she is ok! LOL! ahahas.
but deep down inside her I found this fragile item call heart.
she feels for me everytime i am happy, sad or disappointed.
she is so fun to be with and adorable!
sec 1 arh. I know her abit. sec 2 slowly increase! sec 3 was embracing this friendship.
sec 3 was a tough year for me. especially when my ahma died. she was always there for me.
those tears i shed, i know she saw and felt for me.
without her i think my secondary school life is so gonna be screwed up.
i really thank God for this adorable girl He placed in my life.
next time when we are out of the school, please remember me! D:

ok! next one. omg so long already. hahas.

2. Siyun Wong! Hohoho! [ Girl who sleeps at 8 ]
Sec 2 then know her. First impression was : her words can kill. LOL!! hahas!
now also la! LOL! haha! omgomg. LOL.
she is really very cute one! especially how she sleeps.
that time camp she sleep with me almost break my old bones. LOL!
hahas. then she will say something in her dreams.
She arh. very protective over her friends. and is the heart very soft that type.
kou ying xin ruan. :B
Ahma graduate next time cannot push you in swing liaos. cannot pei you sleep liao.
but then i will still remember this violent and demure little girl! D:

shorten abit :D ok! next!

3. Deviline Chua Qian wen [Sally]
omg she is gonna kill me if she sees that but wenwen! just let me do it once!
I am gonna miss you man!
all the fights we use to have. LOL. omg. the thought of it is like nightmare.
the one with siyun wasn't so bad. haha!
violent women. :D wun't miss your bites though. LOL!
must take care of yourself in school arh. you don't waste your intelligence arh!
don't always go date then forget about me arh! D:
must sleep early and WAKE UP ON TIME.
must take care of your health arh. don't drink coke when you have fever even though your mummy say can!

NEXT!

4. Leong Siew Ling Joscelin Sardine with tomato sauce.
Leong arh! don't any how do vigorous exercise arh! take care of yourself hoh.
rmb to call ahma out to eat strange food with you arh! :D
don't go out too late also. sleep early! go poly or jc cannot sleep in class lei!
this girl arh! always so optimistic and sleepy.
never fail to make me freeze from jokes. hahahas x:
i am gonna miss you!!! D:

5. Hui Ling Ong.
huiling arh huiling.
must learn to sleep early also. don't do things until too stress hoh.
eat healthy food more. and next time we meet then we sing worship song together plus drum rolls. LOL! must stay happy arh. don't cry liaos. tissue now adays raise price. :D

6. Wan Ying Lim!
wan ying!!!! knew you since sec 1. and i really don't know why i see you and have this dejavu feeling. omine! maybe we... xD hahas.
you are always so high and hoppy. always bring life to drama. remember when we use to sing together choir songs outside while we were waiting for the drama room to open. x)
sec 2 though there were some conflicts, i know that you were still there to save this friendship. really sorry to you :( and i really wanna thank you. please don't forget me~ i will cry one. :P
hahas. I AM SOOOO GONNA MISS YOU!

7. Silvana Toh ! [ I AM SO SORRY I FORGOT YOUR CHINESE NAME! ]
hope you see this yeh! cos i duno how to contact you through the com. msg you la. hahas.
owe you many movies! x) must go watch hoh!
really wanna thank you to always stand by me no matter what kind of time.
really wanna tell you that you are awesome! i am gonna miss the study times with you at the library! and all the drama stuffs the 3 of us did together! xD

8.Claire Eu Jun Ning!
hey! know you for like countless of years. LOL! hhaahas.
really gonna bid goodbye this time.
I've said buhbye to so many primary school friends. quarrelled and "disown" them.
but you were always there. regardless of how i am. ):
thank you for your presence! thank you for always standing there when i need support.
your jokes are lame but really brings up the atmosphere among friends. hahas.
i 'd really saw you changed and i am soooo touched. hahas.
please claire! eat more and grow! take care of your health. next time come my house eat dinner oso can :D
don't always eat outside food. and maybe when we are free next time we can make tang yuan that has sugar inside. PLEASE ! no sago! hahas!


9.Michelle Tay! :D
suprise! hahas. you know! you are really one that makes my heart skip a beat when you suddenly have some suprise. xD
we have alot that is similar and i want you to know ! if you wanna go church can always call me! :D
must always stay happy! cos the guys were telling me you look awesome when you smile. hahas xD
I'm gonna miss you! Candy santa.! xD


10. Shriley !
hohoho! another suprise! thanks so much shriley! thank you for always being there to cheer me up when i emo in class! thank you for being willingly to lend me a helping hand! thanks for being shriley! x)


11. Fong Jing Qi!
hihi! xD lol! you arh! ate your math text book right! hahas.
and your science oso. LOL!
must take care of yourself too arh! :D

12. Radin Nur Atiqah!
RNA X: hahas! omg! I'm gonna miss you shoooooo much!
your tsk tsk and your pannaaaasssss~ and your height. LOL.
thank you for always making me laugh although i thought it was suppose to be the other way round. LOL!
you are very cute arh girl! :D
remember to buy more water cos you are always HOT! :D
hahas. stay short! [ hahas. die liaos x) ]
LOL.


13. Liiiizzzzaaa! x)
Babe! same class 3 years already. Each year with you is always different.
you are amazing and cheerful all the time.
i wunt forget you calling me WT :P
please don't forget me too! x) i will chase you with my socks next time to have my revenge! hahas!


ok. so thats almost all the girlfriends! now the friends that are male. LOL.

14. LEE SING ONN .
omg i put you first! same class 4 years le! how did i survive!
you arh. like siyun also. x) kou ying xin ruan.
thanks for being there as well, with all your rubbish talks that always make me laugh.
thanks for teaching me bio. LOL.you are really awesome! don't let others affect you ok? :D

15. Ong Jia Jun.
stupid arsh! eyes so big! walaos. xian mu sia :D
hahas. don't know if you will see this but hope you will ? :D
take care of yourself and my siyun! :D
you are always so good temper and i really don't know why.
stay this way! you are great! i will always remember you!
[ cos you sec 1 bully me] LOL. and you are a great friend. hahas.

16. Tan Ze Wen Jarrel.
hey! why so dilligent arh! walaus!
but you so unlucky. 4 years still same class with me. LOL!
hahas. thanks for your humourous nature. haha.
take care of yourself and cindy :D hope you last long with her. LOL!
[ I'm gonna get killed !] hahas!


17. Lim Swee Sheng.
ahh. slap your face. LOL.
thanks for being real nice and sincere.
thank you for being so innocent.LOL.
take care of your vulnerable heart and be strong! BE STRONG!

18. TAN ZI XIANG!!!!!!
omgomg! 10 years le! and its also really time to say buhbyee.
gonna miss you! omg! strange thing why i never fall in love with you. LOL.
but you are the most gentlemen guy i've ever see.
those people that say you gay are the real gays.
you are really great! and i am so gonna miss you!!! zixiang!!!!!
next time cannot copy homework liaos. cannot cut your foolscape liaos...
and no more cold jokes. hahas x)
take care of yourself!

19. Mack Lee Han Cong.
stop watching porn arh mack! LOL.
take care of yourself! and its fate that we get to be in the same class after so many years!
hope you don't forget me! :D thats not my name.. thats not my name~
hahas. jiayou in what ever you are gonna do!

20. Khoiri!
ggahh. dun so serious when you are serious and dun so naughty when you are naughty.
omg i am making sense. LOL!
its a good thing you quit smoking! hahas :D
no more chance to chase you around with a calculator or penknife.
but hope you wun't forget the fun times we used to had! x)


21. Azwan!!
M&N you donno owe me how many packets le. hahahs.
next time see me outside i dun mind you calling me siao. hahas! just don't forget me ok!!! D:
and maybe you can give other people math tuition cos you are really good at teaching.
hahahas. gonna miss you! :D


22. Zhen yee!
LOL. you and yao hui remind me of tom and jerry. LOL.
must learn to stop acting fierce arh! walaous!
and jiayou in your studies! :D


23. Yao Hui.
mouse!! your drawing so nice siol! x)
da ge. LOL! you arh! underdog! dangerous!
hahas. take care too! x)


24. Tan Zhi Guang.
ZHIII GUUANNG! its also time to say good bye!
we've known each other for duno how many years already. from p3 quarrel until now.
I also tired. LOL. Don't be so intelligent can?! and next time i can share my homework with you. X:
don't sad all the time le. cheer up! remember me !! I shall have my revenge one day! ahhahas!


25. Lincoln.
I duno if i spell correctly. omg! LOL.
hahas. although just knew you this year but you are rather friendly.
very strange and interesting.
plus you owe me 3 mickey mouse.
anw your lizard is cool :D take care in your basket balling. x)


26. Jacob Ma Wei Cong.
Although you sometimes really gl. but you are also very nice to me too :D
must be happy ok?! dun emo so much. LOL. and dun always point your middle finger!


27. Joash Chin Woei Kit.
Did i get that correct? LOL.
thanks for ... errm... all the problems you gave me. LOL!
JKJK!
lol! Wait! I thinking!
errm although same class 2 years but I only knew him this year.
a guy which is really hard to guess. gggahh. SERIOUSLY. x_x
thanks for all your humiliation. I will get stronger from that.
LOL. ok la! thank you for helping me do a few bio questions and introducing games to me?although i ain't suppose to game. x_x.
thanks for many other stuffs that I am trying to recall. you are awesome too :D very humourous.
and quiet. stop thinking about suicide joash ._. and also! last thing! I AM NOT GORE!.....


Ok. that marks the end of my long speech which lasted 1hr 30 minutes for me to type.
oh yah. Many thanks to teachers. Mr Paul! you are the best teacher I've ever seen in my life. You are like a teacher and an idol to me. you are really GREAT OMG!!!! follow by Mr hakim. thank you for the songs you would sing? .. errm. thank you for your encouragement :D.
thank you ms holiyi! for being such a nice form teacher. mr lim also not that nice. LOL. [seriously]. thank you ms teo for teaching me how to paint! thank you ms ho fue ming for looking like my grandma? ... nothing to thank YET. LOL. ok... so thats all. :D
hands tired! time to go drink horrible medicine. buhbyee!

hahahaha. Blogger is finally alright to let me post pictures :3
And anyway... got many feelings to express. you will see what i mean. LOL.
ok fine. so I've deleted what I wanted to curse. In case my blog gets banned or something.
hmmss.... today went to D.A.R.E
don't know arh. so sad over there but then also quite happy there.
That horrible guy that share his testimony said" I got 36 for my L1R5 and I believe nobody would be as lousy as me." [ I am offended be'coz I got 43?!]
zzz. LOL. he didn't know that. LOL.
today was fun. after geo lessons went to city hall. was late meeting jazzy. sorry! D:
and meeting joscelin too x: x_x
gaahh. then i was doing bio in the train. learn about cells. :3
then jazzy taught me about the heart.
jiayou weiting!
today the message that struck me most was about how Jesus turned water into wine.
Whoever that reads my blog! This msg is for you because coach patrick says I post God's word and whoever needs something spiritual, God might make a way for you to pass by here and get filled. :D
Wine is something that take very long to cultivate. The longer, the better. In the bible, it stated that everyone who drank the wine Jesus turned water from, said that it was the most excellent wine they ever drank. The best part was Jesus did it not only for one jar of water, but 10 and more.
If there if no water and no jar, there can be no miracles.
I need to put in effort, and in that very instant of the five weeks I'm left with, I give to the Lord as water while my efforts becomes the jar.
Daddy God, you take it, and turn this plain water into Fine Wine. Into one that people take time to cultivate, but you can take less than a second to make this wine. I believe in you. (:
God is almighty. And who so ever believes that he exist and love, you will get the abundance of blessings running after your life.
It is not the truth that sets you free. Its the truth THAT YOU KNOW YOU HAVE, that sets you free. The picture up there, Jesus was hurt, pierced, tortured. But he believes its worth it because he love us.
How do you know if there is really a God working in your life?
Do you know how an air-con works? But you enjoy having an air-con right? x)
It goes the same. You don't have to know how God works. Just open your hands and receive that grace he is giving. Its gonna benefit you anyway.
Having God in your life is really AWESOME! :D
Everything just feels so super natural.
For example my results. My L1R5 was 43. Now its only 36! x)
May sound ridiculous? hahas. but it deproved by 7 as well. God keeps reducing things for me by 7. hahas. It isn't about how bad it still is. I don't really give a dam.
I give them all to God. And I know I didn't work very hard for my prelims. I was depending on God alot! Believe me, I couldn't have improved so quickly.Even though 36 can't even get me into an ite. but so what? I know that God wun't let me too. He knows where I wanna go.
I am gonna improve and get my 15 for L1R4.
Don't stress, it ain't gona work.
Be at rest and God is with you. He is never against you.
He is always with you, FOREVER!
His mercy comes like a flood, unending love, amazing grace.
Thousands might fall at your left, another thousand at your right, but none! I SAY NONE!
None shall fall on you because the Lord is with you all the time!
Such awesome love! I wish everyone has it! :D
I feel so full with God's love after sharing. hahas!
Tmr going to church. buhbyeee now! :D

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you.
Happy Birthday to youuuuu, Happy Birthday to you!
May the Good God bless you, May the Good God bless you.
May the Good God bless youuuu, May the Good God bless you!
Zhu ni shen ri kuai le, zhu ni shen ri kuai le.
Zhu ni shen ri kuai leeeee, zhu ni shen ri kuai le!
Ahma, Happy Birthday!
You gonna be at an old age today! hahas.
But you ain't around anymore.
I will hang on and try not to cry so much.
Gahhh. Today is lots of people's birthday too.
went to D.A.R.E today.
lots of people i miss! x)
Anjo, Jazzy, Pearlyn, Meishi, Cai hua, Sheryl. And the rest of the names i really cannot remember but i always say hi to them._. LOL!
hahas. yah. so they were like asking me why so long never go...
:3
anw today was fun.
The prayer part was WOW.
people fell and lie straight on the back. ( Got people catch de )
its the strong holy spirit. hohoho.
but i never arh. LOL!
anw went library awhile cos wanted to meet qw ! hehehe. miss her alot neh!
in the end never meet la. hahas. so i went home.
in the mrt like macham market.
The little indian kids climb around and scream~
then the aunty beside me keep raising her hands up._.
after that the ah pek in front of me keep starring macham i owe him money. x_x
haha. then after that went to buy dinner. I was famished!
never eat lunch worx! D:
hahaas. went home :D
Today is ahma de birthday.
Remember when we use to have great parties for her :D
and alot of relatives will come.
and ahma will take picture with me.
then she will ask me cut cake with her.
she will always smile and walk around because she likes company.
but today seemed so different.
Rather last year was the same as this year.
I can't even sing birthday song for you.
sorry. millions of sorry.
I really miss you.
hugging to the things u made for me, the blanket you used to use.
but your presence just doesn't seem to reappear to me.
I feel so helpless at times but I don't know what else I can do but just cry.
I'm sorry, again.
haix. Buhbye.

Gahh. oh. my blog is quite old le. I just realize.
anw saw SO de blog. rofl. lol.
the funny parts are the spam actually. but then delete le.
i used to get spam so badly too. awww.
today went to school for art.
i thought art room close today until chin msg and say OPEN.
ohhh!. so i brought my canvas to art and did it there.
steal white paint X:
lol. after that paint my favourite night sky.
hahas. joash was playing plant vs zombies in the art room!
haha. it was so dam cute! ( I MEANT THE GAME ! )
and the characters tooo!! ( THE GAME?!@$ )
even the michael jackson zombie had backup dancers! lol!
hahas. then after that mack also got come but he left early. But before that he played War of Goo using joash's laptop.
the game was sooo cute too! and there were cute noises. LOL.
then after that paint finish help chin awhile then went home lee.
thinking of where to hang my work. LOL. zilian about my artpiece. :B
okay! gtg now! tmr wonder around do my homework. shit sia! havent do anything.
buhbyeee

Today is 9/9/9 :D
today isn't such a bad day.
but the evening, however, was a totally horrid one.
I am going to be fine :D
SO has been irritating recently. and i dun give a dam even if he reads it. he knows it himself.
Ameer too.
all the lameshits. i dun wan to bother.
and please stop spreading about WHAT EVER FUCKING RUMOURS OF JOASH?! SWEESHENG?!
its so dam lame and for God sake!
you guys are 16?! not 6. so stop behaving like you can't grow up. those things u talk about only reflects about what kind of losers u are.
and whoever that likes to play along, i can tell u its even more idiotic.
morons! _!_
fuck off and shut that arsh of urs.

Gahhh. Holidays sucks because its passing by so quickly and i ain't enjoying it at all.
today finished all my art.
OFFICIALLY DONE._.
ahhhh! i dun wan!!!! !@#$^$*^(&^%$EGDJGXH!%$^$*
D:
ok. calm down. LOL.
zi high-ing. lol.
zhong hui kor kor playing hokkien song for us to hear. rofl.
oh god!
gahh.strange mood today.
nothing much to say. anw.
i just wanna say i know how it feels if i stand in ur shoes.
i can't comment anything although i have alot of comments X: LOL.
tmr duno going where. see first bah.
omggg.. i think i am beginning to behave more like a kid.x_x
anw! i finished drawing paper bag men 2. shorter this time. and i think currently its really gonna end here.
review and secrets of what my story really means, haha. will be posted soon.
those who are not interested, i'm so sorry. LOL. x)
omg! i smell my chinese medicine. OMGOMG! STINKS! AHHHHHHH!!!
ok! gotta run! shucks! eeeeeee. buhbyee!!

Its irritating!
Blogger is in such poor condition right now.
lol. wanted to post picture but nvm.
finally updating. today went out with jos.
sorry to ps so and ss.
anw, went jp the whole day :D
very tired. later eileen came. I want to say is
Eileen is friendly :D
hahas x)
at night ate prata. LOL.
just played audition. my last game of this year before o levels.
oya! qw message me her results. God's grace!
she is really smart one ok! mai siao siao.
as long as she study i believe she can do alot better than anyone else xDD
so happy for her. hahas.
oyah. anw, wanna say buhbyee to denden D:
denden! buhbyeee! Tchau tchau! D:
and xing xing and belz. buhbyeee D:
hahas. today denden so funny. not like the impression he gave me but instead he was so cough* today. ahhahas. he say cannot say so fine -.-
haha. i will remember! the laundry thingy. hahas.
anw... gonna miss them. cos everytime play with them, its always very fun.
feels like a family x)
<333333333333333333333 ):
tmr finally going to church. must go sleep soon. hais.
oya! God's grace!
Many miracles to share.
Firstly was the com.
because i always need press f2 cos the time of my computer got problem.
today i pray. then dunid siol! i just give a short prayer and i really dun have too!
and its really sute how daddy helped me set what was needed for my msn to work.
and its a miracle. except for the time that was wrong ( be'cos it aint necessary) . the rest were all fine.! then followed by my ss results.
i posted about how i mixed the question and wrote out of point.
that qns i got 4/12. LOL!! haha
anw i passed my ss! i got 27/50. hahas
although not very high but i am contented for awhile.
Yet I'm going to do alot better for my Os. AMEN!
x) hahas.
jyjyjy! Praise the Lord! xD <33
ok. follow by my little problems which i face.
this is getting out of hand because its worse than playing guessing games.
I think i should just stop thinking about this kind of things.
maybe it was all just a misunderstanding in the first place.
hais. okok. go off le.
finally , this one is for denden de :D
Tchau Tchau- Deli Spice
I hear your voice
I hear your voice
I hear your voice
I hear your voice
no matter how I try to not,
no matter how I try to not,
I hear your voice
I hear your voice..
your voice
your voice,
I hear your voice.

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