This year has finally ended.
Today I spent my whole day playing auditionsea.
Very sad, no countdown D:
hahas. nvm.
Reflection of this year.
This year was so much better than last year.
I really had lots of fun, found real friends, love and passion for myself.
I 've learn lots of stuff. Art, studies, life.
I wanna thank everyone around me. Thanks for the year.
Either you're friend or a foe. You've made a mark in my life in 2009.
This year flew pass so quickly , I could hardly catch up.
Today marks the end of 2009, the end of my love, the end of my school life.
Next year will be better.
I've learn to look forward instead of looking back.
There are alot of things worth remembering this year.
And lots of things that made me cry. especially you.
& even though so, moving on is fine too :D
I pray that everyone would have a blessed year ahead and to all O level results, Good grades shall run after you because Jesus said so to me! Amen! x)
I've grown more mature this year, learn more about my relationship with God and really enjoyed myself.
Hope that you guys would enjoy yourself next year! :D
And next year! I am gonna get my pay! [tmr] & get a mac book pro~ wooo :3
I'm really enjoying myself. hahas.
Byebyee! Happy new year! :D God bless.
& , I love you no more (:
These memories of 2009, I throw them away. Thanks, for the memories :]

I don't even feel like posting.
Blog die until this state, maybe close down soon.
I think i'm pretty good at making my self angry and sad.
Bye.

Merry Christmas.
This christmas was awesome (:
Really. The stay over, pizza hut, steam boat, and ice cream :3
The presents were real sweet too x)
Yet, my mood can't seem to get any better. Especially at night.
Very Very tired after little rest this two days.
Times like that shouldn't be occupied with your presence as well.
At this point of time, I feel like spilling everything out.
But I'm not brave (: Crushes are meant to be quiet.
This feeling is extreme. Happy and Sad. I think they call it love.
I thought you were gone. Gahh.
Maybe this one is the last one.
I'm angry with you. I'm angry over myself.
I'm tired.
I hate to end posts. troublesome. -.-
Meet me halfway (: bye.

Lets talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
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So familiar. I used to really love this song.
& I still like it though. :3
went to sell uniform at boonlay garden primary school today.
quite fun x) earn 40 bucks for about 7 hours.
after that went home. sis bought me a mickey mouse fox de sweater.
so touched. x) because i know i will never bear to pay that amout of money ._.
and she is always so straight forward when it comes to spending.
I think we both neutralize each other. :3
So, I used my pay to buy her present today..
Oh.. Went out with Jos and Liyi in the evening. xD had lots of fun, AS USUAL :3
Went to IMM.
gahh. I posting for an hour and I type abit only. hahahas.
Looking at Dj-wavalx de blog.
Dayne, Joanne, Weiting, Amanda, Valarie, Azura, Liyi, Xiao fen.
Those days.Lol.
I never knew school ends so quickly.
This four years, My greatest "achievements" are..
1. I know lots of friends :3
2. I studied.
3. When Girl meets Boy in school.:(
Oh.. Gracious. Tmr is Christmas eve.
I love Christmas! seriously.
Thank you Daddy God, For Jesus.
Thank you Jesus, for your selfless sacrifice, for this day that we can all celebrate after 2009 years of your presence. Because of this day, darkness has become light.
Okay. Time to go now! gahh! rushes* Bye! :D

Oh hi there. Just change blogskin. :3
I find it very cute so change le x:
Rotting at home today. Yesterday buy a few things for x'mas le.
Tmr going caroling with dare group xD woo~
Yesterday I was thinking about lots of things. [as usual]
I realised that everything has changed.
While I was painting I feel different looking at that pair of eyes and face.
It wasn't as familiar and warm as it used to be.
I come to understand that maybe its not only you that has already moved on.
But, me as well.
I guess I not mature and ready to face this kind of problems ._.
As for now, whats so bad about being single :3 [nobody want la. <.< LOL]
Yet I promised a christmas present. I threw that ugly painting away. take to recycle x)
I think I better with charcoal,than using pen and markers, than painting, than using pencils, than using pastels.
Everything is changing. Even my brain is growing. xP
Well, I've used to love rainy days.
Now I just pray that the sun won't move. If not the cats out there might get wet.
After I HAD a cat, I realised You are like a cat.
I can feed you and love you. I can give you shelter and warmth.
Yet you can run away. Then you would come back sometimes to get food.
CATS ARE HEARTLESS. Althought I still love them ._.
Gahhh. Mothers are never ever contented.
Here comes the never ending naggings.
Okay. Bye now :D Tmr will be a better day; I hope.

I strongly believe! With a supported reason and many other observations..
That you've never loved (:
Good day everyone.
I quit my job already.
Christmas is coming.
Gifts prepare half way le.
Tmr going out alone.
Need buy some stuffs.
I'm going to do something very stupid.
Yet regardless of whatever your reaction might be.
I've decided to end everything here.
But! I'm still going to continue painting.
I'm still going to fall in love with another person. Get married, have sons and daughters, have grandsons and daughters, grow old and die.
I'm gonna move on.
The show said that, how long you're in love with this person is going to be how long you take to let go.
I can do better I think. (:
I'm a coward. & yet this time, I want to deal with the problem, face to face.
Settle it, and smile.
Even if I fall, I will stand up.
Good night (:
& Happy Birthday to Santa [Saint Nicholas]
For tmr de :P

Today took a break from work, again.
Neck painful until bth ._.
Tmr going back. Quitting le.
MOE send letter around. For the teaching de.
Going for the seminar. Anybody else? (: jio me wor.
Hope salary come soon. Want to start preparing xmas present and buy art materials.
Going to start learning how to paint again D:
In order to go my dream land x) LOL.
gahh. got so pissed off I think I might offer you a tight slap.
11.05 PM. omine.
Time to sleep! Tmr got last day of work. x)
buhbyeee.
Anw, like this song :3

楊丞琳 - 雨愛

窗外的天氣
就像是 你多變的表情
下雨了 雨陪我哭泣
看不清 我也不想看清

離開你 我安靜的抽離
不忍揭曉的劇情
我的淚流在心裡
學會放棄

聽雨的聲音 一滴滴清昕
你的呼吸 像雨滴滲入我的愛裡
真希望雨能下不停
________________________________ stop here ba. (:
Good night. Sleep well.

I want to quit! I dread waking up early T.T
Yesterday have lots of fun with liyi and joscelin. went picnic. LOL!
at clark quay.
hahas. nice scenery :3
hmms. nowadays very little people using blogspot le..
i wonder if next time when i grow up i will still be using this :B
hahahas.
Was talking to a friend just now.
I realised I've forgotten alot of stuffs. After everyday and every second.
You seem to move a little step further from my memory.
Liyi told me you'll ask. I know very well you wunt.
I like you more than you like me. That, I'm sure.
& I know everything was over long time ago.
Its disappointing when you know that there would be that day, but it just wunt come immediately.
Just like what I told my friend just now about ahma.
She never managed to wait for 10 more days.
& she spent 14 years and 357 days with me.
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Lalala. Time to sleep le. Tmr got work x_x.
Anw, watching Hai Pai Tian Xin. really very funny x)
hahahas. and touching. [ though tao hua xiao mei more touching x: ]
lol :X. ok! cya :D

Tomorrow take leave. Yeah~
Working really very sian.
Very tired.
Think about alot of stuffs that I should forget.
I remembered how I first asked for your number.
& when I've gotten it, it was as though I've strike lottery.
When my back aches so much and you always bother to help.
When you don't mind sitting down beside me.
Gahh. Again. Slap myself.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqzSwBBiP1M&feature=related
For you (:
bye.

Gosh. I'm still working.
Actually its quite fun.
Except the toilet which I find it the worst toilet I've ever smelt compared to the rest among my 16 years of life.
Abit exhausted after 2 days of insufficient sleep.
Back ache, neck pain, leg cramp.
As usual. lol.
After many days there, my english really hopeless.
I think I might have some problem continuing my studies! AHH!
This few days.. working non stop wasn't a really bad thing.
especially when you do it with ur besties! :D
Thinking about many things.
Sorting out the mess inside.
Sometimes everything just seems so possible.
But after that you realised its just your imagination.
I can say it feels even worst ._.
Even if I say I don't, I know I still remember.
Remember that day when we took the train back.
And the message you sent afterwards.
Anybody can say that and I won't feel a thing.
But something special was anything that you say seems to be so special.
So heavy and sincere. Like a present that I don't have to open but know I'll love.
Zoom. Faster than light.
Everything vanished.
Sometimes I just want to post something real sweet. Something that will be about how happy my life is.
& it always seems to be that I ain't happy with what I have.
Never contented. Up and down mood.
Go sleep le. Tmr got work x) bye.

New job is <.< Absolutely boring to the extend you want to quit after a day.
will continue a little longer.
today was fine.
i'm a little bit no fine.
I think i can get things done soon.
pack up, disappear. shiok.
lol. -.-
Depress. Mental.
bye.

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I realise Christmas is the season which inspires people most than other occasions.
Regardless artist or novelist.
As for me, I call myself sadist. T.T
lol. went bugis with jos today.
Hahas. fun day and very strange ideas.
though jos spent most of her time with her phone more than me T.T HAHA :P
hahahas. mayo now eating. and then she will go back to slp soon.
mini mayo threes still sleeping as usual.
Sister is the mother of mayo. then why!
WHY I BECOME AUNTIE OF CAT STILL NEED DO MORE THINGS!
hahahas! x) but they very cute one. LOL.
Gahh. Christmas coming :D
wooo~
Today didn't buy anything except mayo's plate and food. :3
Gahh. caught up with liza and atiqah :D
miss them alot. hahahas.
Ohh~
then after that talked to liyi. PICNIC! woooooooo~
Tmr start factory work with liyi and jos already.
the BGH de or wadever never go x_x
like so bad X:
mama~ okok. gtg run. jiejie wan use. buhbyee :D

Night sky on paper. The canvas one next time then upload.
I don't understand why we always end up quarreling.
I just don't get it. No matter how hard I try.
& I'm beginning to behave like you. Oh God. ._.

Oh. Another day at home.
Rested enough. lol.
Today I've been feeling alot.
Feel for people, for myself.
I took a little recap and looked at my art pieces.
I realised most of my paintings and comics were done for you.
Although I know we have already cross the point.
From collinear, we became parallel.
Its the same. But we are no longer on the same line.
We no longer share the same gradient.
What ever people said, I ignored.
I used to think maybe you are my half apple.
& now, I can only dream about it.
I don't like how I'm living now.
But I know I more bliss.
To dear friend.
What ever happens, I am there. I will lend you my ears and shoulder.
I know I can't do much. I'm not God.
But God can do through me. God can protect you.
What ever people say or do, I want you to know you can ignore.
& to that bitch. You better watch out. I'm gonna burn your pants.
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王心凌 - 暖星


城市里 小星星
稀疏的 亮晶晶
太多光 吃掉他们的身影
就像我 爱上你
隐没在 灯海里
你眼中 只看繁华的夜景

我的爱藏在你的 背影里
想要笑着坚定的恒心

天黑的时候 我远远陪着你
再小的闪烁 也努力放光明
当有天我在夜空里面
偶尔被发现 希望我眨眼
能感动你视线

想把小星星 排成爱的突袭
为你的天空 点缀一些惊奇
即使像流星一闪而过 寂寞也情愿
不求你看见 只想为你发光 永远

天黑的时候 我远远陪着你
再小的闪烁 也努力放光明
当有天我在夜空里面
偶尔被发现 希望我眨眼
能感动你视线

想把小星星排成爱的图形
为你的天空 点缀一些惊奇
即使像流星一闪而过
寂寞也情愿 不求你看见
只想为你发光 永远